may 2004i didn't know exactly what i was getting anyway from the picture. so book lover that i am, the title of the lot being nondescriprive i got an ebook .but i love the smell of a good leather binding , i love the heft of a book i just don't think i would enjoy reading off the screen or pile of pages. joke's on me. next, now i have no idea really what i'm doing, i buy some nice make up hurray!my head isn't filled with cats and dogs anymore it's clear .but i'm still dumbfounded by ebay.still feeling my way around
april 2004Now I'm feeling around selling. I didn't get a digital camera with a USB cable till today. But I started selling over a week ago. Going with description only, and I'm Selling! People like my stuff! First it was alittle makeup I never used. Now it's jewerly, always a good one. But it's hard going and I have to write very detailed descriptions.I've had to relist just about every one till they sold and of course not all of them sold. But I made enough to pay my sellers fees. And have money left over! I am honest to a T and I tell every little detail about my item. Well I'm getting a lesson on the camera and how to down, or is it up load? the pictures today or tomorrow and I'll be in pictures!Pretty cool I think. Life will be so much easier.. Well that's all for now I'll let you guys know how it goes.. .well it's going great.i've learned how to sell and have my gallery pictures and everything. look at me, after 2months i'm talking like i know what i'm talking about. but i've been selling lipsticks, mascaras and ankle bracelets mainly. but the ankle braclets aren't selling well. i don't know why. they are so cute. and i wear them in the shower and everything and they havent tarnished. but that's life.my mascaras's sell real well, but i can't figure out how how they bid so high in the last few minutes.sometimes i take a hit but it all works out. my lipsticks sell well but there's not much money in them. but i like selling them. if one doesn't sell and i like the color then i keep it after i run it one more time. but so far i only kept two.i have a lot of stock due to come anytime now and i need it because i'm down to the bone on stuff to sell. but i'm sure it will be here soon. anyway my pets are their usual selves. one shy. one needy. one independant and the dog just does his own thing. but i love my cats and dog. and i wouldn't give them up for the world. so that's what's been going on. till next time......well it's almost labor day and i'm a pro now still selling my mascara and lipsticks and whatever else fits in.
2005 i lost one of my cats. my youngest. the needy one. she came down with kidney failure and we didn't even realize it till she way too far gone. wo we had to put her to sleep. it was heart rending. gary held her and i petted her while the vet gave her the shot and it was all over so fast. i still cry for her when i think about her. she was so sweet. now the other cats have become very demanding since her death. i don't understand it. they hound us all the time to pet them and scratch their heads like cats do. and we love them so we do it most of the time. if we don't they howl sometimes. anyway gary's mother just passed away. she was like 88 years old and sickly. she had emergency surgery for some stomach ailment and never awoke from the anesthesia. gary is taking it well. he's going up to MA to be with his family for two weeks. i'll be so lonley.we live in TN so he'll flying up.he's going to stay at his mother's home with his sister who's flying in from KY. the brother is taking care of everything. he's a lifesaver right now. very organized. gary will have him to lean on. i can't go and leave the animals.so i'll be on my own away from gary fro the longest time in our whole relationship which is 15 years. that's a long time.i'll have my ebay to keep busy. maybe i'll sell more while he's gone.you know i still can't figure out how to put a picture on this page. i have a real good one but i can't find the jpg or what ever it is that you need to put in the link to put the picture in. putting pictures on a listing is so easy. all you have to do is click on browse. why can't they do that here. i'd have no trouble then.then you'd get to meet me and gary face to face. well that's enough for now i want to spend time with my husband.till next time
7/10/06well just got back from my husband's vietnam veteran reunion. it's been 40 years and these men are kids again when they see each other. i can see it in their eyes. it is so wonderful to see the bond that noone who hasn't served during combat will ever be able to understand completely. we had a great time.my husband and some of the guys went swimming at about 3am one night! must have been fun. but i gave him the space he needed to be with his buddies as much as possible. he's not much older than i am, but they are at that age where one here and there are no longer with us. some by their own hand. but the banquet in honer of the mia/kia/pow was wonderful. food was eh. desert i loved. cheescake. yum. then all to soon it was over. i'm wearing my shirt that says ,"AIRBORNE VIETNAM VETERANS TOGETHER THEN, TOGETHER AGAIN" I LOVE THE SOUND OF THAT. AND WITH THAT I'LL END AND CHECK MY SPELLING. UNTIL NEXT TIME YOURS TRULY.
7/13/06 I'M WRITTING TODAY SO ANYONE WHO TAKES THE TIME TO READ THIS PAGE WILL KNOW ME ALITTLE BETTER.I AM DISABLED AND EBAY IS MY WAY OF PASSING THE LONG HOURS OF THE DAY. I MAKE VERY LITTLE MONEY AS I DON'T TRY TO. I SELL FOR PEOPLE WHO CAN'T AFFORD TO PAY THE HIGH RETAIL PRICE FOR THE COSMETICS I SELL OR HAVE NO ACCESS TO THEM. NOT FOR MONEY. IF I LOSE EBAY FOR SOME REASON I WILL LOSE A BIG CHUNK OF MY LIFE. I AM A SMALL SELLER AND I LIKE CHATTING AND MAKING FRIENDS AND DON'T SET OUT TO CHEAT OR HURT ANYONE. I CRY WHEN I GET HURTFUL LETTERS FROM CUSTOMERS. I SMILE AND LAUGH WHEN I GET FUNNY AND SWEET LETTERS. I TREAT PEOPLE AS I WOULD LIKE TO BE TREATED AND LOVE SENDING GIFTS TO PEOPLE "JUST BECAUSE". WELL I THINK I GOT PERSONAL ENOUGH FOR ONE DAY. I HOPE NOBODY USES ANYTHING I'VE WRITTEN TODAY AGAINST ME.I HAVE HAD THAT HAPPEN. THOSE THINGS HAVE BEEN DELETED NEEDLESS TO SAY.BUT I AM OPENING MYSELF UP TO MY FAITHFUL CUSTOMERS, FRIENDS AND ANYONE ELSE WHO TAKES THE TIME TO READ THIS. UNTIL THE MOOD HITS ME AGAIN TO WRITE IN THESE PAGES. LATER.....
5-4-07 i cry as i write this. it's been 30 days since my heart broke. we lost my oldest cat., thumper,. named after the rabbit, because he was a manx. had the little tail like some of his breed do and the hiked up legs in the rear and when he was a kitten he hopped like a rabbit and looked like one. jet black with hair as long a a rabbit's. it's called a double coat. typical for a manx. he was such a beautiful creature and in jan at age 13 he had lost alot of weight. he'd been about 20 lbs his adult life and he looked about 10 by the time we took him to the vet. oh how he hated leaving the house and we hated putting him in the carrier. it was so hard on us all. thumper had been very independant but had become closer to me in the few years since the youngest died. alex at first was more needy for attention but maybe sensed his brother's impending illness and pulled away and became a hermit. very skitish. began living virtually in our spare room. came out specific times of day like on schedule for attention and his need. he also likes looking out the back door like princess used to do along with him. but thumper got down so thin and he was only vomitting alittle but still very vital as always. we took him to the vet and told them to check him over head to toe because of the weight loss and he had a small wart on his head. they removed that and a bad tooth. called us that afternoon and told us he was totally healthy although thin that was a good weight for a cat. cats were normally less than 10 lbs. not thumper. that was jan. mid feb he's comming out both ends and lost alittle more weight. i know he's getting little nutrition and losing water this way. but he compensates by eating and drinking alot. he's not like other cats. he talks all the times. his vocal range is amazing. he will ask for special food and you know what he's saying. he'll take you to the frig and won't stop meowing a certain way till you get to the cold cuts he wants. it just depends on what he feels like. then he'll eat a couple slices. he needs all he can get. we take him back again to the vet. we're cleaning up after him from both ends bad. they give him hydration can only find very early renal failure not even yet detectable in the blood tests. nothing on exrays or other tests. just need to get through this with nutrition and fluids. we opt for at home sub q. fuids given under the skin to keep up with the amount he's losing . this went on until he got real bad and we were ready to put him to sleep. we wanted to do it at home. the vet offered the name of a house call vet who couldn't come till mon. gave us some antibiotics for the first time. thumper rallied. the new vet and us decided to go with stronger antibiotics since he thought he knew what it was. thumper started to get better . the front end stopped and the rear got alot better. after 10 hopeful days the dr said keep doing what you're doing and lets see what we can find on the internet. we asked around and found a specialist who gave us some ideas. meanwhile the next day thumper blew up with gas and the rear got as bad as ever and he started from the front again. then he started meowing on and on and on. until i'd hold him or feed him or we went to bed together so close we could feel each other's breathing. he'd get next to my husband till i got in bed then curl up till he was in the exact right spot next to me so he couldn't get any closer. like a part of me. crying out all day. help me. i don't know if he was in pain. i don't think so. i think he was uncomfortable for sure. gary said we need to put him to sleep after the consultant and i talked with the vet and we were going to try a bland diet of baby food meats for a week and see were we stood. but gary couldn't take it . he said he was hurting. he wanted to stop here. i wasn't entirly ready. i didn't have time. i just wasn't ready. when i called the vet i thought i'd have at least a few more hours, but the vet had something that evening and i had an hour with him after gary spent some time alone saying good bye. i took him in the kitchen and gave him his favorite fancy feast to eat while i fixed a box with a fine linen table clothe. i picked him up and sat on the couch and just held him to me and felt his warm body breath next to mine. the check for the vet was on the table. i sat quietly with my heart in my arms. 13 yrs and 3 months together we'd been. if he was human he'd have been bar mitvah as i am Jewish. so he'd have been a man/ creature. he lay quietly in my arms so warm and soft yet fragile. my tears flow now as then. too soon the vet arrived with the first needle. thumper didn't feel it as i sat down and he quickly slipped it in his hind leg. a sedative to sleep before the phenobarbitol sleep of eternity. i held him till he struggled as he felt nauseas as the dr has said he woudl, he just spit up a bit and laid back against me. we waited alittle longer. he slept. warm, breathing. the helpless creature whose life i was responsible for and for whom i'd failed. something insidious was killing him and it was time to rest. the dr took him from my arms ,oh how i didn't want to let go. never again to feel him breath of hear his purr or see him walk into the room of sleep next to me as if we were one. all in that short second. all too soon the dr said it was over and i turned back and tried to pick my baby thumper up but he was flaccid and flopping when i tried. the vet put him in the box for me. after he left. i took my own stethescope and listened and listeded for what seemed like and hour for any sign of life. all was silent in his so still but still warm body. i reached into the box and hugged him to me as best i could. scratched him as he loved to be scratched just so and right there. smoothed his fur and arranged him in a position he used to lie in when he slept on the bed during the day before his illness and all was well with the world. his and ours. the lose hurts so much. how could a creature like him come into my life as no other and steal mine and my husband's hearts so totally. my husband burried him after i left the house. we talked later and he told me as i told him of every second of our time with thumper when the other wasn't there.he held him like a baby and cryed like one. made sure his eyes were closed. he put him in a different box and curled him nicely and wrapped him with the linen. patted him after so his fur was smooth again. that beautiful black soft fur. kissed his still warm body. sealed the box over and over to keep out any curious scavengers and burried him out back. he placed some cinderblocks oner his grave and said some prayers. 2 days later i visited the grave and talked to him awhile said some prayers in hebrew and english . recited the 23 psalm. and found a nice smooth stone to leave at the top of the cinder block as is our custom so the soul will know we visited. i grieve so hard i am shocked, but it's true. i relive that day. gary is hurting too. it is so so hard. i will try to get a photo up of him. i loved him very much. i still do. thanks guys.
2-25-08 i wrote a bunch of stuff but it didn't show up. it must have been deleted or i didn't save it. about our new kitties, another army reuinion(was great) some other things. not sure what i did or didn't do. but i got the pictures up!
4-15 well a terrible thing happened. as some of you may have noticed i stopped selling for awhile. my husband fell and sustained bleeding on his brain. he was rushed to the hosp and transferred to vandervilt ICU to decide if they should operate. he was semi comatose. they gave him some kind of treatment and kept his blood pressure down and it stopped bleeding. he might have remained in that state for the rest of his life they said. luckily he rallied and 2 days later was transferred to the VA hosp to stablize him and make sure it didn't start to bleed again. he came more alert every day and now he's been home a week. he's lost alot of weight and is still unsteady on his feet and has a headache all the time. we have physical therapy come twice a week and a nurses aid to help him shower in this lovely shower chair. he's getting around the house good but refuses to use the walker. he uses his cane or just furniture to steady himself. but the thing is i pushed the thought out of my mind that i wouldn't have him back like he was. he's a tough old soldier. so that's the terror i've been going through and came out of the other side stronger than before and thank Him for hearing my prayers and the prayers of my friends. so i'm selling again as usual though i just started listing last week when he came home. i am so thankful.
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