The MOST important thing I would like to share with you is my love for Christ. I am a Christian, and my relationship with God is what comes first in my life. It is my source of joy, strength, peace, hope… I could go on and on!!! Out of this comes the name Kings Kids Boutique! 

Please share a few minutes of your time with me as I allow you to get to know me a little better and share with you a testimony of the faithfulness of God…

Having Hope  

This is a testimony of Gods awesome faithfulness in our lives… My husband Brian and I were married in July of 1995. We were not married but a couple of months when we had decided it was time for babies!! We had nieces and nephews that we adored (and still do)… but it was time to start trying for children of our own! The journey God was taking us on was beginning!! 

At first it was just a little bit of a bummer that is was not happening as fast as we thought it should. After a year or so we started wondering if something was wrong… we just kept trying every month and every month we were disappointed! Well, the disappointment grew, and became harder and harder as time kept going on. We would cry out to God, and ask the Lord to either take this intense desire for a family larger than just the two of us away or to bless us with a baby. 

God had given us words that we would indeed have children, and several amazing things happened… God had given strangers words of encouragement for us, and people that we love dearly encouraged us as well. I was struggling holding onto the hope that I would ever hold a child of my own. I remember a Mothers day years ago when our Pastor was talking to Moms and I just broke. I sobbed. I remember thinking “will I ever know what it is to be a Mommy, will anyone ever call ME Mommy?” The hurt within was very real.

After about four years of going through the disappointment every single month we finally decided to see a specialist who was supposed to be excellent.   We had hope that this would be an answer from the Lord. The doctor during surgery found some polyps in my uterus and we opted to have them removed. Next was the dye test through my fallopian tubes to make sure there was no blockage there. Now we were ready to start the roller coaster ride of fertility drugs and inseminations. We did this three separate times and each time nothing happened, this was expensive and very hard emotionally. Brian and I both needed a break from the emotional ride we were on so we took a break from all of it for a while.

Several months later we decided to go to our doctor and try once more. I was inseminated and a few weeks later we found out we were pregnant!!! You should have seen us… we cried, held each other and cried some more. I was SO excited words could never describe what I felt inside!! However…about a week and a half later I began to bleed a little. I called my doctor immediately, he put me on bed rest and told me if I was miscarrying there was nothing he could do. He wanted me to come to his office the next day. 

I really don’t know how to explain the feeling I was having at this point, obviously this was very very hard on both of us. We had my Aunt, Uncle and cousin from Florida staying at our home and my Mom had come over to see me too. Brian and all of my family that was there came back in our bedroom where I was to pray with me. At this time I began to pray and I said out loud “God, WHATEVER you have decided, I TRUST YOU.” I cried, but when I spoke those words to my Papa God a peace that definitely surpasses all understanding flooded me, I was totally calm at this point, it was incredible. That day is a memorial stone day in my walk with God, I came to a new level of trust in my God. No matter what my circumstances were, I was going to trust God completely.

At the doctors office the next day they were unable to find the baby in my uterus. This was of course hard news to hear. The doctor thought the baby was in one of my tubes. We waited, and went back for him to check again, things were the same, and the doctor said I would have to have surgery to remove the pregnancy from my tube. Because this could be life threatening for me, we had to have it immediately. So, a couple of days later I was getting ready for surgery again! This was very emotional and I was trying to be brave, but truth be told, I was scared. I remember lying in the bed before they took me to the operating room just saying His name “Jesus” over and over again. Again, a peace flooded me, I became SO calm, so fast I really actually thought they must have given me something to calm me down in my I V. Gods presence is so real!! Well, we were praying for a miracle and the answer didn’t come the way the way we desired. When I woke up in recovery Brian was by my side and I asked, and he told me that they removed the baby. We sobbed. God gave me a wonderful Christian nurse that prayed with me, I was hurting, but His presence was still so real, He took such good care of me.

I went home to recover physically and emotionally. I received a phone call a couple of days after being home, my doctor wanted to speak with me. He called to tell me that while he was doing surgery on the right tube, he saw a lump in the left tube. He pulled some tissue out of the lump and sent it to the lab, it turns out he said that it was another pregnancy. There was a long pause… I said “twins? I was pregnant with twins?” He said “YES”. I had to go have a shot to remove the rest of this pregnancy from my other tube. I just wanted all of this to be over so I could move on at this point. I had to go back for five or six weeks for blood work until He knew both of the pregnancies were completely gone out of both of my tubes. The doctor then put me on two months of birth control to get me back to normal. He then did another dye test to check the damage to my tubes, he found a lump in my right tube and my left tube had a hole where he cut out the pregnancy. He said “Make an appointment and we will start over”.

The very thought of doing this all over again was very overwhelming. Brian and I prayed and we felt like the Lord wanted us to try on our own. So we waited one month and decided to try. Brian bought a home ovulation kit so that we could tell when I was ovulating and most likely to become pregnant. I was supposed to do the test in a certain 5 day window of my month. On the third morning, our phone rang at 4:30 am… we were both wide awake thinking something must be going on!! The caller id said unavailable and they hung up!!! Well, of course I had to take the test… you guessed it, I was ovulating!! A couple of weeks later we found out we were pregnant!!! After almost seven years and everything we went through… no doctors this time, only the Great Physician!! I was watched closely and they found our baby right where she should be!! We got to see that little heart beating!! Praise God!! The doctor said that he really didn’t think it would happen for us, He said “you beat the odds”.

Can I tell you that NOTHING is impossible with God. NOTHING!!!! We celebrated our seventh wedding anniversary on July 22^nd 2002, and on July 24^th our sweet baby girl was born, we named her HOPE.

The Lord put within my heart while I was pregnant to write of His faithfulness and that the title should be HAVING HOPE. It is now Feb. 2008, and I am revising, adding to this testimony!!! Hope was only 10 mo. when we decided to try again for a baby, we got pregnant our first month trying, and on March 1^st 2004 our next sweet blessing from the Lord was born, we named her Faith. 

Well, we were just THINKING about trying again when Faith was just over a year old and we found out we were pregnant with our third sweet miracle, she was born February 21^st 2006, and we named her Gracie!!

Just before Gracie turned one we were wondering if the Lord had more children for us or not… this time we were not even quite to the point of even talking about trying again for sure!!! Our fourth amazing gift from the Lord was born on October 19^th 2007… a SON!!! Yes, a sweet little man in this home ruled by little ladies!!! =) We named our precious little man Hunter Brian!

God is SO awesome!! I am now called Mommy, ALLLLLLL day every day and at times in the middle of the night. =) I have three active toddlers and a baby in my home and I LOVE every second of it!  I find myself holding any one of my children at different times in front of a mirror and next thing I know the tears come, and I know I have said probably hundreds of times “Thank you God for my babies”. I am so in love with my children I can hardly handle it. Children truly are a gift from the Lord. God is so faithful, and we are so thankful!!!

I shared these intimate details of our journey to encourage you… whatever you are going through, you will get through, God is SO faithful, and He wants to bless you, we don’t see the big picture, but He of course does. God has used and continues to use what we went through time and time again and I praise Him and thank Him. Our God is so good!!!

Philippians 4:6&7 Be anxious for NOTHING, but in EVERYTHING by prayer and supplication, WITH THANKSGIVING, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses ALL understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Blessings and Love in Him,